Poetry- Who Am I?

by Shawnee Bowlin
(Northeast Texas)

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Who Am I?

Sometimes I feel there is a stranger inside;
I feel lost to reality with nowhere to hide
except inside myself where I silently cry.

Sometimes I feel like I belong somewhere else
and can't find my way...can't find myself.

Sometimes I feel and sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I don't even know what I want.

How can I help other people understand
when I myself don't know who I am?
I wander along, sometimes thinking I've found
a treasure, a pearl, a rainbow, solid ground.
But just as I feel my journey has ended
I once again wonder if I should just run.
"Run away," says the confused and lost stranger in me.
"Run away, for you'll never truly know you, you see."

I dig down deep and come up empty.
Running in circles seems to be my destiny.
Will this uncertainty ever end?
This uncertainty tries hard to remain my friend.
I don't want this confusion.
I want it to end.
I just want to be me.
But which me would that be?

Who am I? This person who struggles
to find her way out of her bubble.
Who am I? I'm lost. I'm found.
I feel like life is tossing me around.
I can't decide. I can't choose.
It's personal torture, my inner abuse.