The loss of a loved cat continued

by Lucy K
(UK)

FeedTheVillage.com - Pet Memorial: The loss of a loved cat

I held him in my arms, crying like a baby and just repeatedly told him how much I loved him and that I was sorry I would not be there.

My boss at work had told me I could have taken the day off to take him, but I could not bring myself to be there when he actually died.

I really regret that decision now- everyday.

I wish I had been there to hold him as he fell asleep, but I can not change that now.

It felt like he knew what was up that night before he was due to go.

As I held him crying, he just kept gripping me tight with his claws and kept kissing my face softly.

I ran home to my boyfriend in floods of tears and actually cried myself to sleep.

I know people say that phrase a lot, but I actually wailed so much (my boyfriends exact words!) that I fell asleep from exhaustion.

When I woke up my eyelids were twice their normal size, I felt horrific.

Then I had to go to work.

It got close to his appointment time and then it passed.

I knew I would never see him again.

I spent that day crying too. (I'm crying now as I recall and write this all down.)


My parents buried him in our garden in the flower beds that he loved so much.

He used to wander around smelling all the different flowers, then go to sleep amongst them all.

I keep a picture on my desk at work which I look at all day long. I have him as my screen saver on the computer at work and at home. It's been well over a year now and I still cry when I look at his pictures sometimes or when I think about him.

I honestly don't know when I will be able to stop thinking about him.

I can still feel how soft his fur was when I picked him up for a cuddle.

I can still remember all the things he did that made us all smile.

I have hundreds of photos of him and look through them quite a lot. I know that whatever happens in my life, however many cats I come to love throughout my life, none of them will ever have the same effect on me as Reggie did.


I also know that Reggie had one of the coziest, best and easy lives a cat could ever wish for.

He did not want for anything and I am pleased that I was privileged enough to spend so much time with such an amazing animal.


If anyone else has ever felt this way about losing a loved pet, I extend my deepest sympathies to you and hope that you can move on whilst never forgetting the wonderful life that you will have shared.